10,000 leagues under the sea

I know that I am not supposed to over analyze. Most of all relationships, but I can't help myself but to have conversations that will never be with you in my head. But really…most of all, I need you next to me laughing, crying, screaming. I need you to feel with me. We are not in a relationship. We are hardly friends. We are two life forms walking by one another on a plane not in the human dimension. Our friendship is a fantasy, for we are perfectly matched. I cannot live in fairy castles or live in a tower, only seeing you on holidays and drop in visits. It shatters my soul to tell you I am cutting off my hair. That I am burning the bridge you cross to get under my skin, to tell me everything about you from your favorite color to the inner workings of your mind. I know how your wheels turn and that I have the grease right here in my hand. I also have the key to your heart. But you have changed the locks, and have given other's the new key. You've forgotten me.